Back with a PART TWO follow-up from the first Shit New Age Girls Say video below!
When you say yes to something, the Universe conspires to make it happen.
I have never felt this so strongly as with my journey through the Mayan Heartland. This intentional, ceremonial journey was 17 days long, starting in Antigua, Guatemala, touching down in Rio Dulce, Belize, Livingston, Tikal, Palenque, San Cristobal, and Lake Atitlan, to close the heart shaped tour back in Antigua.
Truly, this particular physical journey began well before it even came into my consciousness. My partner, J Quest, and I had discussed only months before how we dreamed of creating a documentary show about the most sacred sites on our earth. Both of us had fantasies of visiting ancient pyramids in hopes of gaining some knowledge or awakening our intuition of the mysteries of how they came to be. Even as we shared our visions thoughtfully with each other, the reality of getting to that point in our lives seemed like a distant dream – neither of us having the funds or resources to make this dream come true in the near future.
That is, until one fateful day at our magical shared home in Ojai, CA. You see, I had just left my not so conventional, but still conventional life in Los Angeles just weeks prior to move into a community of dedicated transformational visionaries, intent on creating positive change in the world. I left the steady income from my “day job,” which I held to support an unpredictable acting career, which I left too, and moved an hour and a half north to a small town 11 miles off of highway 33. I sold or gave away almost everything from my comfortable nest in Hollywood and said, “I surrender.”
I surrender. What does that even mean? Well, for me it meant, “I’m letting go.”
I let go of what felt like years of work that got me to a place of complacency disguised as comfort. I let go of all the material things I had come to identify with. I let go of a false sense of security from my “scraping-by” wages that paid the rent and not much more. I let go with trust and faith that all would work out for the best. I trusted that I would always have everything I need.
All I would take with me was gratitude, intuition, luck, and my three cats. (Actually, I tried to give away one of my cats and she came back to me. The number 3 is THAT powerful. Oh Roxie! I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you!)
But please, I digress.
What I am illuminating here is that I had nothing to my name, and although I now find myself with an amazing world changing band of evolutionaries, none of us are making much money! At least, for the time being, as our new paradigm company/community funnels all our earnings as an intentional production company, and from our transformational live events back into the community and into our purpose driven company.
Yes. We always have what we need.
HOWEVER, due to a perceived lack of monies, my mind told me that the prospects of traveling the world to document sacred sites seemed like a faraway dream.
Forward to mid-September of 2011, where J Quest and I found ourselves talking with our friend Aaron El Leon, founder of Running Buffalo Journeys. I had just met Aaron a month prior at Burning Man in a completely different context and suddenly a month later he is sitting before us talking about the trip he is leading to the Mayan Heartland starting October 13, 2001 and ending on the auspicious date October 18th, 2011 – the last day of the Ninth Wave according to Carl Calleman – in ceremony with a Mayan Elder. As we sat there listening to Aaron describe the journey, I felt a deep rumble in my solar plexus resembling solar flares. J Quest and I mentioned our intention to document journeys just like the one Aaron planned. Aaron asked us to come. My gut said, “YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!”
Before I knew it the words uttered from my mouth.
YES YES YES!
But how would we pay for it? I wasn’t making any skrill and neither was J Quest. What a conundrum.
This is where the magic really started happening. Within a few days, our first (and generous) donation came in from a traveler on the previous and Running Buffalo Journey’s first ever tour. Within weeks, we raised enough money to make the trip happen.
YES! Thank YOUniverse!
I’d like to say that nothing could prepare me for this, but that’s a lie. I was freaking PREPARED and READY! Eff Yeah Universe! I KNEW IT! My gut said YES and I wasn’t going to let any doubt stop me! By the time it was a week before the trip, we had just enough to take us there and back. This was enough for me to know that we are being Divinely guided to go to these sacred sites, bring love, bring light, and to hold ceremony calling for the healing of our planet and for all our brothers and sisters who live upon it. Not only that, but to document the whole journey on camera. The wealth of support also let me know that I could trust the same guidance for finishing the project once we returned, and to just be present and GO.
So we went.
Oh my. How can I possibly describe to you this powerful journey? How can I possibly describe the deep healing we created space for on so many dimensions? The magical wizards and high priestesses we met along the way? The synchronicities we experienced? The miracles?
This is the kind of intentional journeying that I believe should be invited back into our lives as a normal practice. What ever happened to the vision quests? The walkabouts? The medicine wheels? Sure, there’s a revival in the counter culture, especially with Burning Man and other festivals, tribe gatherings, and amongst other small communities and indigenous cultures, but what about for the collective?
Need I remind myself that this is what I was brought on the journey to do as a filmmaker.
My life changed on this journey. I witnessed on the deepest levels how powerful I am as a creator. I witnessed magic and mystery. I downloaded answers to some of the oldest questions burning in my soul. Words can hardly express the gratitude I have for the divinely appointed team of travelers on my journey, who held space so purely and intentionally as we started the journey off charging eight crystals that we would release as we traveled along our path, as guided by Spirit. We opened up those crystals to the frequencies of our planet and all our brothers and sisters as divine transmitters. We channeled into them the healing guidance of our mother earth and the infinite love of father sky. Traveling through the third largest “lung” of our earth, in the rain forests of Central America, we deposited those crystals in bodies of water along the entire heart shaped journey and there they lie, ready to receive.
Please send them some love.
As a child I told my mother I was going to save the planet. I told her I was going to save the world. I told her we had to go back to being “natural.” My mother would say I was from outer space.
She might just be right.
Wherever I came from, I know this is true: This journey that was guided so divinely and happened by way of such MAGIC, is complete validation that I am living my purpose. Wow. What more could you ask from a spiritual journey, right?
I know I am meant to share this journey with the world. In fact, I know in my gut I am meant to share many more. I am meant to lead some of these journeys as well, so don’t be surprised when you see one planned for the near future. Start saving. We’re gonna save the world together, ok? I trust this deep in my gut just like I knew when my gut said YES that there would be no stopping what had already started in the ethers. Why else would the senior editor from Escape Artist Magazine, with no prior knowledge about this trip, ask me to write an article about any particular spiritual journey I’ve experienced, which I share here now?
And if you have been feeling called to take a journey of your own, I encourage you to find in your soul the YES that is waiting to be uttered, received, and acted upon. I fuly support you and I say YES to you finding your purpose! I say YES to you finding your SELF. I did and I am heaven bent on spreading this message of love and sovereignty amongst all of our galactic family.
And if you are hesitating at all, whether it be due to the perception that you’re lacking the funds, will, or energy to go, then I invite you to test the waters by being apart of bringing the next chapter of my journey to fruition by visiting http://SacredGeography.org. Donations of any amount and energetic support are deeply deeply appreciated. I trust with the same faith as above that this project will finish and be shared. Please stay tuned and keep in touch at http://facebook.com/sacredgeography for regular updates on its status.
Wherever you may travel in your lifetime, be it in the physical or non-physical realms, I wish you always a beautiful journey. <3
Posted 1 year, 1 month ago at 11:04 pm. Add a comment
Putting it all out there in the field haha…
I am pretty transparent in sharing my own discoveries from eating raw foods to quantum study and you know what? I’m manifesting some amazing experiences in my life because of it! And, the biggest lesson of all that all the greats and all the masters have ever said is to not take life too seriously. Laugh often and enjoy life. So…
Posted 1 year, 4 months ago at 5:43 pm. 2 comments
Back in September I went to Burning Man. I came home to Ojai and into the ELEVATE estate with a group of artists, filmmakers, producers, designers, programmers, and other badass, highly skilled people and I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH. We are participating in the grandest social experiment of my life: living and working in community. Why? Well, why not?
People break their backs trying to support themselves in the old paradigm world we have lived in for so long and life can be so much easier if we all just shared and loved a little. In fact, a LOT! We share resources and support each other the way tribal cultures do and it WORKS. Amazingly!
The funny thing is, last year I remember telling one of my best friends that I was manifesting an experience like this because of a vision I had of community. I imagined a house much like the one I live in now, with the most brilliant minds (which they are), and all with the same dream: To uplift humanity through art, creativity, and to live and teach self sustainability.
BAM. The Universe provides.
Posted 1 year, 4 months ago at 5:37 pm. Add a comment
I love my ELEVATE community. We are all human and deal with the banality of cleaning our house every day. I’m sure you’ve all experienced having to clean up after someone else. This is why we make the effort to have as much fun as possible doing the most mundane things! Enjoy!
Posted 1 year, 4 months ago at 5:30 pm. Add a comment
yes, i know.
but look what i’ve got for you after all these months!! i recently got to partake in a project spawned from the creative labs of ELEVATE as a response to a Will Ferrell parody of the video Dear Woman, a video based on the “Manifesto for Conscious Men,” which has gotten quite a number of hits on Youtube and has raised a bit of discussion amongst men and women alike regarding the dance of the masculine and feminine energies that lie within all of us. now, i won’t go into all that too deep this time around, but let’s just say a yin yang ain’t only the decal on your weed grinders folks. we’ll get back to that one.
and thing is, because this is a topic that isn’t right up at the top of every person’s consciousness, it’s easy to make mockery of such, which is exactly what Will Ferrell and friends did with this gem:
Will Ferrell, i love you. which is why i am honored to be a participant of this letter to you, in “Dear Will Ferrell.” please watch, enjoy, rate, share…anything ya’ll feel. i love y’all!
Posted 1 year, 10 months ago at 4:25 pm. Add a comment
well. today’s the day folks.
i was indeed judged today. yup. i got hacked. and you know what my punishment was? 24 hours without facebook. i’d say i did pretty good.
thanks GOD. love ya.
for real though i’m really thankful for today, ya know? it’s kind of amazing really. the download i keep getting is that it is a judgment day of sorts for the collective consciousness. even if we know deep in our hearts that the world isn’t going to physically end for the majority of humans today, many of us are weighing this day in our minds. both our conscious AND subconscious minds. did you know our subconscious minds process 400 billion bits of information per second while our conscious minds only process 40 bits per second? and because you can consciously control your conscious mind, you can know well and good that nothing crazy is gonna go down today. you can rationalize the hell out of it and be focused on all your other shit and know the day is just gonna continue as per usual etc., etc….
but your subconscious mind is processing ALLLLLL possibilities. which means there is deep deep within you, something that is saying, “yes, but what if…”
and that ‘what if’ is a beautiful thing.
because what IF the world WAS ending today? what if it was? this is not to be fatalistic at all people. no. it is…
maybe some people are only asking themselves in their subconscious minds and if you read this, then are encouraged to ask yourself consciously, but today… TODAY. today and the days that follow…
the question is:
was it all worth it?
i mean, isn’t that what facing our mortality all about?
judgment day. judgment day. i know my 3 dimensional reality will not end on this day. but what is ending, what has been ending for me through a whole process, is the restraint of my fully expressed self. these last few days i’ve heard the teeny tiny voices in there asking myself, “…ok. now… hypothetically speaking, let’s just say ‘what if.’ what if it did end… did i live my life fully? did i love fully? did i follow my dreams?”
and the answer?
yes. yes and yes. yes and yes and YESS!!!
and there is always room for more. let me repeat: there is always room for more.
more life. more dreams. more LOVE.
because all of that is infinite.
and i fully understand that i choose my path. that i can choose either suffering or i can choose love. this is the human condition. and for me, after years of digging deep into my heart to release all the stuff that was blocking love, i face myself today and i love what i see because all i see is love. i look into the world and all i see is love. i see every single human being and all i see is love. every single animal, every single plant, every single star, every single pixel of space. every single fractal of existence.
this beautiful beautiful beautiful hologram we call life.
i am so grateful.
i’m grateful for you for reading this and allowing me the opportunity to share. truly. creating this blog almost two years ago was therapy for me and knowing i had readers checking in from all over the world inspired me to live with the highest integrity, which is truly a healing healing gift and i thank you.
and i’m grateful i got hacked. i’m grateful i can’t sign into fb for another 12 hours and 59 min. not that i’m counting.
but the lockout gave me space to give the other outlets some lovin. if you follow my twitter or blog, you may have noticed i have been a bit negligent. but it’s only because i’ve been uber present in my non-digital life.
except for fb. find me suckas and let’s be friends. (Patty YUniverse) <— i know, i know. and i make zero apologies for my dorkdom.
i love yous.
photo by miss tay tay.
Posted 2 years ago at 11:05 am. Add a comment
life is so amazing and beautiful….
Posted 2 years, 1 month ago at 10:17 am. Add a comment
yes, yes…i realize it’s been a while.
what’s changed, really?
as usual, transformation is the name of the game peeps. not surprising to me anymore, as this IS the time. it’s now or never!!
are you noticing it as well? noticing yourself and the people around you making changes, or if not consciously making them, situations “occur” to cause a shift? if you presence yourself and pay attention to the world around you, patterns and synchronicities emerge. everywhere. major shifts in our lives and major shifts on the planet, in our bodies, in our hearts, all mirroring each other so synchronistically. it’s so fucking beautiful and amazing i can hardly stand it! i am really just using an old paradigm figure of speech, because not only can i stand it, i am just reveling in it. soaking it up, yum yum fucking YUM.
let me ask you: how good can YOU stand it?
obviously, if you saw my last post, you heard me go on about exploring raw cuisine, and the many positive effects it has had on my health and spirit. and i realize rather than label myself a raw foodist, i’ve evolved into an intuitive eater, where i generally prefer food with a high content of nutrition, and that subsists of fresh, organically grown food, the less treated the better, and ultimately balance is the key.
when i began this exploration, my intention was to cleanse my body of all the toxins we take in on a regular basis eating processed and conventionally grown foods. i am so so so so grateful for this book i found called Secrets of An Alkaline Body, written by Annie Jubb. she opened a restaurant called Lifefood Organic near my place in hollywood, and discovering it, her, and the book… well, it saved my life. i am completely serious when i say this.
whatever was brewing beneath the surface that i couldn’t see but could intuitively feel, that probably wouldn’t have caused any “serious” issues for many years still, was causing a lot of fear deep in my mind. the deep fear came from not knowing. and not knowing creates lack of ease (hello? dis-ease!). this fear over not knowing kept me re-living my old patterns, which would have surely lead to disease. that is, until i gave myself the gift of bringing the parts of me sinking into the dark back into light. literally. for me, this was through food. i brought in more light — light created by the synthesis of the sun and the earth and our plants — back into my physical body.
this is fucking LIFE FORCE.
by seeking knowledge, i discovered knowing. by exercising integrity and intentionally changing my old patterns, i created ease. which came from harnessing the light. and the light is… well… ready? God. Source. Creator. Is. Be. Am. Us. You. Me. Whateveryouwannacallexistence.
and it blew my heart open. ok ok, so you’ve heard this already yes?
so why is this coming up again?
it has to do with a few sexy pictures that i’ve been hesitant to share.
this is certainly, by far, my most spiritual segue into sexy photos [to date].
but you see, this hesitancy to share is teaching me SOOOOO much about the whole process i’m going through discovering my true self. the photos are of course, from my annual summer shoot with my brother from another galaxy, lee clower. my connection with lee and the images we co-create is a channel for me to share an aspect of myself that i had kept in a pattern of hiding. it is an aspect innate within me — in fact, a gift — innate in all of us.
the pure energy of creation. this energy is so beautiful, so amazing, so deep, so fucking fire engine yes solar flare yes more aliens yes bursting universal loving yes ecstasy yes YES YES YES!
and yet… we are told our whole lives no no no…
that energy is shameful. you shouldn’t share that. you’ll be judged. you’ll be exploited. you’ll be stripped of your dignity. and to add another layer to the mix, we are also taught that our bodies should be “perfect.” perfect? what’s perfect??? and as defined by who???
when i was still “toxic” i bought into a lot of the shame and guilt. i required spiritual assistance (aka my friend big Green) to bring me to a place even close to self-acceptance. and since we’ve already established that i pretty much tell you everything (i mean, sheesh, if you just read from the beginning, this blog is basically a map of patty yu’s journey to self discovery), i totally used that “assistance” for this shoot, taken only halfway into my “spiritual transformation.” i say halfway because i was consciously doing a lot of looking inward to “exorcise the demons” and making fantastic progress! but i was still recreating many of the same patterns.
and so, when i look at these photos, i am reminded of where i was then. i see in my eyes the pain of not knowing. and i see a body that i recognize as beautiful and sexy, but i know that it was mistreated, not fed for 2 days prior, because i felt out of control due to lack of any real knowledge about how to nourish it. i recognize the confused me in those photos and i remember her. and my hesitation to share is me pausing to feel through those memories.
the echos of fear. echos of shame. echos of guilt.
but i know something changed. for good. and therefore i release all my judgment and i honor her. for making that shift. to get her to me.
because now i live in bliss every day. now i see myself in the light.
and i appreciate, and cherish, and nourish, and love my self, like we all deserve to be loved. nourished. cherished. appreciated.
and for whatever reason i am compelled to just share all of this process. to perhaps illuminate the complexity of self-consciousness, and how that can manifest within the human mind. i share this information to assist in your transformation, should you seek it.
because i appreciate, and cherish, and nourish, and love YOU, like YOU deserve to be loved. nourished. cherished. appreciated.
i ruv yous.
now that was a lot of foreplay…
are you as curious as i am how the next shoot will go?
love you lee. i am so grateful to co-create with you.