This has indeed been the year of the Snake. Ssssssssssss… I am sssstill reveling at how the pain of shedding can be received with so much blisssss…
You may have read my blog about PAIN, or even watched one of my recent video blogs. Ever since my journey with healing candida and making it public, I’ve gotten LOTS of questions about the experience and what I’ve been doing to facilitate my healing. SOOO, here it is:
I’m going to first tell you about the treatment and then share aspects of my diet that I’ve changed, as well as any tips I’ve picked up on the way. I also have some advice based on feedback I’ve received from hundreds of people in our Candida Cleanser Support Group on FB that have taken or are currently taking it. This Candida Cleanser treatment has definitely been the MOST effective treatment I’ve ever done for candida and I finally feel liberated from its sticky, stagnant consciousness. Visit this website if you are interested in learning more about the specific product I used for healing my candida. I have to warn you, their website sucks. It’s true. But you know what? If they didn’t put that stupid alien thing on their FB page, I would have never found this stuff and it really saved me. I am so grateful. So if you can get past their web design choices, what I’m really recommending is the product, which actually works even if their website sucks. I was at a point where I had nothing to lose anymore and I wrote to them and established a connection. I was then blessed to be able to do a trial test study with them which you can watch in this BEFORE video and then an AFTER video.
If you have struggled with candida and choose to do this cleanse, I am excited for you! I have now had several friends who have also completed the cleanse, who are all seeing positive results and the common report is that they feel AMAZING. I also created a FB Support Group for people to join while doing the cleanse because die off can be a bitch!! I wish you all so much love and healing. I hope this blog supports you on your journey!
The Candida Cleanser Protocol
One bottle is a full 45 day treatment, which you take in three courses. You take 4 capsules a day for 5 days, and then you take a 10 day break. 5 days back on, 10 days off. 5 days on and you’re done taking pills, but your body continues cleaning house. The active ingredient is called Lufenuron. It is 100% pharmaceutical grade Lufenuron, which is an inert compound in the human body. It does not get processed through any major organs and if you do not have candida it passes out through your stool. This is a fat soluble compound and must be taken with fats in order for it to be properly absorbed and delivered into the blood stream. You must consume with at least 4g of fat per capsule. Taking it with pure coconut oil is not recommended as coconut oil taken alone can act as a diuretic and you could lose the compound in your stool. Take with fats AND food. I have heard that it is excellent to take with Ghee, and in fact, to open the capsules into the Ghee to take it. By taking properly with fats, the compound is slowly delivered into your blood stream so it can address candida in both forms (yeast and fungal), and it can remain in your system for up to a month after you take it. Here is a VERY informative video about the treatment that I helped produce.
Depending on how bad your candida is, you can (and for most of you very LIKELY will) have die off symptoms. These can be anything from flu symptoms (headaches, fever, body aches, cold chills) as your body deals with the toxins released by dying candida, to also common candida symptoms like yeast infection, thrush, bloating, skin irritations, and diarrhea, as the body pushes out the candida. There is also an emotional detox, so be prepared for extra sensitivity and irritability, emotional outbursts, depression, and anxiety. Some people also report dizziness, foggy head, fatigue, vertigo, pins and needles all over the skin, shortness of breath, and strange sensations in various organ systems.
Candida Cleanser offers a few products that help with detox support but you don’t have to go with their stuff. From hearing feedback in the support group, the Zeolites seem to help a LOT of people by reducing die off pretty significantly. You want to take this IN BETWEEN your capsules (so if you take the capsules every 4 hours, you take the Zeo-Co 2 hours in between. Do NOT take them at the same time or you might lost some of the cell wall suppressor to the Zeolites drawing them out. Feedback from people is that you might want to get an extra bottle of Zeo-Co because it is not the same dosage schedule as the actual 45 day treatment. Die off does decrease as you finish the cleanse, but if you anticipate a lot of die-off, you might want an extra bottle of Zeo-Co to get you through. Other detox support could be bentonite clay, activated charcoal, or any heavy metal detox supplements at your health food store.
Candida Cleanser makes a probiotic called EM-Pro. When I first did my treatment I didn’t get any of the extra products. Since I helped them document our test trial, the creator of Candida Cleanser, Clare on the website, sent me some EM-Pro because she was touched by the video. I had been taking the Garden of Life Raw Probiotic and thought it was fine. Here’s where I might be sharing a little TMI, so if you don’t want the details of Patty Yuniverse’s gastro intestinal delights, you might wanna jump ahead. I started taking the EM-Pro and WHOA. I felt my whole gut start to turn over and for three days I pooped really foul and almost black toxic sewage. It wasn’t pretty, but I am a lot happier that foul stuff is no longer INSIDE ME. So I’m pretty sold on her EM-Pro, and Clare even said to me she’s very proud of this product especially and wanted to send it to help prevent me from getting sick again. Since shipping from their Thailand location takes forever, I recommend stocking up as well.
What to Eat
This is the BIGGEST question I get asked and wow, have I been on a long journey to figure out what to freaking eat. Sheesh. After spending way too many years of eating whatever food and non-food I want and starting to feel gross and on the verge of disease a few years ago, to going raw vegan for 6 mos, to being high-raw vegan, to nose-diving into an out of control carb addicted vegan, to my body getting SHUT DOWN from the candida that blew up as soon as I started eating rice again after my raw phase, I have now found myself very happily and EASILY maintaining a basically Paleo diet that is edging toward a Ketogenic Diet. This means I am eating only whole foods, but staying grain-free, starch free, and mostly sugar free. I am eating vegetables, clean meat (free range or grass fed or wild only), seeds, nuts, and right now for healing my gut, I’m doing a LOT of bone broths. More cooked veggies, less raw veggies unless it’s juiced. Very little fruits. Ironically, I’m like 0% raw right now…not entirely true, but almost. Apparently, raw plant fibers, and the sugars from many fruits are not good for a damaged gut. So I’m cooking my meals to make them easier on the gut, but still taking in green juice regularly for extra living nutrients! Plus superfood supplements yo…
Things to KNOW
The body is a delicate ecosystem. It takes time to heal. I have had considerable healing crisises even after completing my actual treatment. I feel like I’m experiencing new kinds of sensations that indicate cellular reorganization in my body. Several times I’ve felt what seems to be cellular turnover in my gut as it continues to heal. There are times when a portion of my colon seems to feel inflamed, and there is a lot of gas released in that area, and then the inflammation disappears. I’ve learned to be patient with my body and it’s paying off. Slowly but surely, I can really feel how it’s reaching a state of genuine healing.
Another thing to know is that candida is a VERY COMMON microorganism that can be reintroduced very easily. Something I learned from Clare is that it can be transfered via intimate contact as well! My advice is to take it easy when you’re done and give yourself time and space to heal and ESPECIALLY make the effort to repopulate your gut with probiotics as a preventative. Don’t go binging on sugar immediately after. Also, just think about it… if the path you’ve been on led you to having a candida overgrowth, don’t you think you might need to make some changes? Yes. It’s true. To quote Einstein – “Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” If you want things to change, YOU will have to change.
Have I Had Sugar Since?
YES. My only “cheat” this holiday was that I ate a LOT of dried persimmons. I didn’t realize this, but ONE Japanese persimmon has 21g of sugar in it. I must have eaten 5 or 6 persimmons worth. I rode a fun sugar wave and then crashed out only to have a night full of tossing and turning. The next day I had my aerial silks class and I felt so much weaker than normal! I also felt inflammation in the body. I was more irritable the next day and also felt my blood sugar being on a delicate balance. I craved more sugar, which I chose to feed with a couple more persimmons just to see what would happen. Oh come on, I knew what would happen – subtle sugar high and then crash. I got the data I needed and quickly started craving the feeling of being more in that ketosis state on the higher fat, low carb paleo-like regimen, which means I’m very much back on the broths, blended green soup, veggies and clean meat. And I don’t feel out of control at all! This is only possible because of the Candida Cleanser treatment.
How I’ve Benefited
Besides the tremendous pain I experienced going away, the other BIGGEST and most pronounced change is that my allergies are 100% gone. I used to ONLY be allergy free while I was fasting and also during a 6-8 month period a few years ago when I ate all raw. Why didn’t I just stay raw? Well, I thought I was healthy enough to start eating brown rice and quinoa in the winter to have some warming food. That sparked the existing dormant candida in my body to rapidly grow in strength and that’s when I nose-dived out of control. I also recently learned about leaky gut and how hard it is for a damaged gut to digest raw plant fibers. Doing all the raw food could actually have further damaged my gut , which makes sense because when the candida surged, my allergies started coming back tenfold and I started breaking out and gaining lots of inflammation weight, even on a high raw vegan diet. Truly, it was all a blessing, because I would never have resolved my candida if I hadn’t decided to start shoving rice and quinoa back into my mouthhole. It would have just waited for the next opportune time to flare up and take over. Now, it’s a totally different game. The NEXT BIGGEST positive change is the mental clarity, drive, motivation, and focus that I now have versus before the cleanse. Wow…it’s a new world! I’m training in aerial silks and I’m getting focused. I’m investing energy into my projects and into myself and my education and growth, and I’m emotionally more present than I’ve ever been. Several weird body pains that nagged me for years are gone, and my skin is the most clear it’s been since before my teens. I have to say, I’m beyond happy with this product and I will keep some of this stuff in my back pocket to make sure I never go into that place of terrifying pain again.
This cleanse is for those who are truly ready to step back into full health and radiance! Please also join us in the FB support group if you want support during your cleanse and keep me posted on your experience!
I wish you all so much love and healing on your journeys!
Some years ago I had these two phrases tattooed to my forearms to remind me that I came here to die. Such a statement could be perceived as shocking but it’s true. I give thanks that somehow, through the fog of my once hyper-dulled and culturally medicated reality, my higher self revealed to me that the pain of death and transformation is inevitable in this realm. That I would not be able to avoid pain forever. That I could even learn to welcome pain as a teacher, and a sign of healing, growth, and evolution. My higher self also cultivated within my heart the understanding that suffering would be my choice if I wished to experience it. This mantra allowed me to dive into the pain I felt then, and rebirth myself into who I am now.
Come 2013…where I would experience pain again.
There is pain – the kind that makes you laugh at yourself for a silly bumped elbow. The kind that causes a slight gasp to escape from your lips. Or the kind that causes you to pour forth a combination of agony and ecstasy.
Then there is the kind of pain that stops you in your tracks. That makes you forget to breathe. A blinding pain that you feel through the infinite echoes of the Universe. The kind of pain that can send you momentarily to the other side just to wake you back up. WAKE UP! Stop. Breathe. This is the kind of pain that feels like a sure sign from the Universe to STOP. STOP what you are doing right NOW. Go no further until you have gotten to the ROOT of this…not later, but NOW.
Aye…I hear youniverse. I bow to you humbly now…please help me heal. I receive you in all your wisdom.
This healing path is often a confusing one…moments of rapture, ecstasy, bliss, mingling with momentary egoic certainty that there is some answer…some solution. Every time I feel certain about anything, the Universe gives me a reason to QUEST-ion again.
As I FEEL into pain…FEEL into my root connection with the Earth, I real-EYES I am feeling her. Momma I am feeling you. I am so sorry, please forgive me. Thank you, I love you. I am so grateful for this piece of you that you have kindly lent to me for this lifetime. This piece of you that I get to pilot and dance through the ether in the most magnificent grandest show of this lifetime upon lifetimes.
Thank you for showing me where I have been disconnected at my root…fearful. I thank you for inviting me to see what I was not letting myself see. I forgive myself and all. Thank you for the honor of giving me sight to see all that came before me, and all that will come after. I grieve for all the mothers lost on the journey. I give thanks for the ability to FEEL such grief and loss through this temporary experience of separation. I revel in the sweet bliss of agony. What a blessing it is to feel anything at all.
I also thank you for inviting me to feel into the depths of my third chakra storms…weathering the core of my existence in a full tantrum of rebirth stewing in the cauldron of my belly. My weakened armies of invisible soldiers finally standing up and demanding to be restored and replenished. Declaring WE ARE! Yes my darlings, we are and I AM! Proclaiming with determinism and force to change and heal in this NOW. I am sorry I neglected you and failed to provide what you need, severely limited by own stubborn mind. I now SEE…I’m here for you.
Thank you thank you thank you for the divine intelligence of the body, always doing its best at all times to serve our existence here on this Earth. Thank you thank you thank you for challenging me to step up to my highest choices…for me AND for momma Earth. I hear you. I honor you. I serve you. I serve US.
It has become quite abundantly clear that if I am to share my gifts with this world, that I must heal my root connection with the Earth. I also fully accept my role as a divine creator of my own reality…and I thank you for showing me that it all begins with my WILL. My CHOICE. My choices every day, every moment.
Life is oh so precious. I choose to honor this life always in all ways. Thank you for this magnificent experience. Blessed journey to us all.
Painting: Frida Kahlo
UPDATE: I have since began a healing journey from something called CANDIDA. Here is a video blog I made to describe my journey:
If you think you have candida (it is WAY more common than you might think) and you would like to know how I healed myself from candida, visit this link: http://bit.ly/12PeTD6.
When you say yes to something, the Universe conspires to make it happen.
I have never felt this so strongly as with my journey through the Mayan Heartland. This intentional, ceremonial journey was 17 days long, starting in Antigua, Guatemala, touching down in Rio Dulce, Belize, Livingston, Tikal, Palenque, San Cristobal, and Lake Atitlan, to close the heart shaped tour back in Antigua.
Truly, this particular physical journey began well before it even came into my consciousness. My partner, J Quest, and I had discussed only months before how we dreamed of creating a documentary show about the most sacred sites on our earth. Both of us had fantasies of visiting ancient pyramids in hopes of gaining some knowledge or awakening our intuition of the mysteries of how they came to be. Even as we shared our visions thoughtfully with each other, the reality of getting to that point in our lives seemed like a distant dream – neither of us having the funds or resources to make this dream come true in the near future.
That is, until one fateful day at our magical shared home in Ojai, CA. You see, I had just left my not so conventional, but still conventional life in Los Angeles just weeks prior to move into a community of dedicated transformational visionaries, intent on creating positive change in the world. I left the steady income from my “day job,” which I held to support an unpredictable acting career, which I left too, and moved an hour and a half north to a small town 11 miles off of highway 33. I sold or gave away almost everything from my comfortable nest in Hollywood and said, “I surrender.”
I surrender. What does that even mean? Well, for me it meant, “I’m letting go.”
I let go of what felt like years of work that got me to a place of complacency disguised as comfort. I let go of all the material things I had come to identify with. I let go of a false sense of security from my “scraping-by” wages that paid the rent and not much more. I let go with trust and faith that all would work out for the best. I trusted that I would always have everything I need.
All I would take with me was gratitude, intuition, luck, and my three cats. (Actually, I tried to give away one of my cats and she came back to me. The number 3 is THAT powerful. Oh Roxie! I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you!)
But please, I digress.
What I am illuminating here is that I had nothing to my name, and although I now find myself with an amazing world changing band of evolutionaries, none of us are making much money! At least, for the time being, as our new paradigm company/community funnels all our earnings as an intentional production company, and from our transformational live events back into the community and into our purpose driven company.
Yes. We always have what we need.
HOWEVER, due to a perceived lack of monies, my mind told me that the prospects of traveling the world to document sacred sites seemed like a faraway dream.
Forward to mid-September of 2011, where J Quest and I found ourselves talking with our friend Aaron El Leon, founder of Running Buffalo Journeys. I had just met Aaron a month prior at Burning Man in a completely different context and suddenly a month later he is sitting before us talking about the trip he is leading to the Mayan Heartland starting October 13, 2001 and ending on the auspicious date October 18th, 2011 – the last day of the Ninth Wave according to Carl Calleman – in ceremony with a Mayan Elder. As we sat there listening to Aaron describe the journey, I felt a deep rumble in my solar plexus resembling solar flares. J Quest and I mentioned our intention to document journeys just like the one Aaron planned. Aaron asked us to come. My gut said, “YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!”
Before I knew it the words uttered from my mouth.
YES YES YES!
But how would we pay for it? I wasn’t making any skrill and neither was J Quest. What a conundrum.
This is where the magic really started happening. Within a few days, our first (and generous) donation came in from a traveler on the previous and Running Buffalo Journey’s first ever tour. Within weeks, we raised enough money to make the trip happen.
YES! Thank YOUniverse!
I’d like to say that nothing could prepare me for this, but that’s a lie. I was freaking PREPARED and READY! Eff Yeah Universe! I KNEW IT! My gut said YES and I wasn’t going to let any doubt stop me! By the time it was a week before the trip, we had just enough to take us there and back. This was enough for me to know that we are being Divinely guided to go to these sacred sites, bring love, bring light, and to hold ceremony calling for the healing of our planet and for all our brothers and sisters who live upon it. Not only that, but to document the whole journey on camera. The wealth of support also let me know that I could trust the same guidance for finishing the project once we returned, and to just be present and GO.
So we went.
Oh my. How can I possibly describe to you this powerful journey? How can I possibly describe the deep healing we created space for on so many dimensions? The magical wizards and high priestesses we met along the way? The synchronicities we experienced? The miracles?
This is the kind of intentional journeying that I believe should be invited back into our lives as a normal practice. What ever happened to the vision quests? The walkabouts? The medicine wheels? Sure, there’s a revival in the counter culture, especially with Burning Man and other festivals, tribe gatherings, and amongst other small communities and indigenous cultures, but what about for the collective?
Need I remind myself that this is what I was brought on the journey to do as a filmmaker.
My life changed on this journey. I witnessed on the deepest levels how powerful I am as a creator. I witnessed magic and mystery. I downloaded answers to some of the oldest questions burning in my soul. Words can hardly express the gratitude I have for the divinely appointed team of travelers on my journey, who held space so purely and intentionally as we started the journey off charging eight crystals that we would release as we traveled along our path, as guided by Spirit. We opened up those crystals to the frequencies of our planet and all our brothers and sisters as divine transmitters. We channeled into them the healing guidance of our mother earth and the infinite love of father sky. Traveling through the third largest “lung” of our earth, in the rain forests of Central America, we deposited those crystals in bodies of water along the entire heart shaped journey and there they lie, ready to receive.
Please send them some love.
As a child I told my mother I was going to save the planet. I told her I was going to save the world. I told her we had to go back to being “natural.” My mother would say I was from outer space.
She might just be right.
Wherever I came from, I know this is true: This journey that was guided so divinely and happened by way of such MAGIC, is complete validation that I am living my purpose. Wow. What more could you ask from a spiritual journey, right?
I know I am meant to share this journey with the world. In fact, I know in my gut I am meant to share many more. I am meant to lead some of these journeys as well, so don’t be surprised when you see one planned for the near future. Start saving. We’re gonna save the world together, ok? I trust this deep in my gut just like I knew when my gut said YES that there would be no stopping what had already started in the ethers. Why else would the senior editor from Escape Artist Magazine, with no prior knowledge about this trip, ask me to write an article about any particular spiritual journey I’ve experienced, which I share here now?
And if you have been feeling called to take a journey of your own, I encourage you to find in your soul the YES that is waiting to be uttered, received, and acted upon. I fuly support you and I say YES to you finding your purpose! I say YES to you finding your SELF. I did and I am heaven bent on spreading this message of love and sovereignty amongst all of our galactic family.
And if you are hesitating at all, whether it be due to the perception that you’re lacking the funds, will, or energy to go, then I invite you to test the waters by being apart of bringing the next chapter of my journey to fruition by visiting http://SacredGeography.org. Donations of any amount and energetic support are deeply deeply appreciated. I trust with the same faith as above that this project will finish and be shared. Please stay tuned and keep in touch at http://facebook.com/sacredgeography for regular updates on its status.
Wherever you may travel in your lifetime, be it in the physical or non-physical realms, I wish you always a beautiful journey. <3
I am pretty transparent in sharing my own discoveries from eating raw foods to quantum study and you know what? I’m manifesting some amazing experiences in my life because of it! And, the biggest lesson of all that all the greats and all the masters have ever said is to not take life too seriously. Laugh often and enjoy life. So…
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Back in September I went to Burning Man. I came home to Ojai and into the ELEVATE estate with a group of artists, filmmakers, producers, designers, programmers, and other badass, highly skilled people and I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH. We are participating in the grandest social experiment of my life: living and working in community. Why? Well, why not?
People break their backs trying to support themselves in the old paradigm world we have lived in for so long and life can be so much easier if we all just shared and loved a little. In fact, a LOT! We share resources and support each other the way tribal cultures do and it WORKS. Amazingly!
The funny thing is, last year I remember telling one of my best friends that I was manifesting an experience like this because of a vision I had of community. I imagined a house much like the one I live in now, with the most brilliant minds (which they are), and all with the same dream: To uplift humanity through art, creativity, and to live and teach self sustainability.
I love my ELEVATE community. We are all human and deal with the banality of cleaning our house every day. I’m sure you’ve all experienced having to clean up after someone else. This is why we make the effort to have as much fun as possible doing the most mundane things! Enjoy!
but look what i’ve got for you after all these months!! i recently got to partake in a project spawned from the creative labs of ELEVATE as a response to a Will Ferrell parody of the video Dear Woman, a video based on the “Manifesto for Conscious Men,” which has gotten quite a number of hits on Youtube and has raised a bit of discussion amongst men and women alike regarding the dance of the masculine and feminine energies that lie within all of us. now, i won’t go into all that too deep this time around, but let’s just say a yin yang ain’t only the decal on your weed grinders folks. we’ll get back to that one.
and thing is, because this is a topic that isn’t right up at the top of every person’s consciousness, it’s easy to make mockery of such, which is exactly what Will Ferrell and friends did with this gem:
i was indeed judged today. yup. i got hacked. and you know what my punishment was? 24 hours without facebook. i’d say i did pretty good.
thanks GOD. love ya.
for real though i’m really thankful for today, ya know? it’s kind of amazing really. the download i keep getting is that it is a judgment day of sorts for the collective consciousness. even if we know deep in our hearts that the world isn’t going to physically end for the majority of humans today, many of us are weighing this day in our minds. both our conscious AND subconscious minds. did you know our subconscious minds process 400 billion bits of information per second while our conscious minds only process 40 bits per second? and because you can consciously control your conscious mind, you can know well and good that nothing crazy is gonna go down today. you can rationalize the hell out of it and be focused on all your other shit and know the day is just gonna continue as per usual etc., etc….
but your subconscious mind is processing ALLLLLL possibilities. which means there is deep deep within you, something that is saying, “yes, but what if…”
and that ‘what if’ is a beautiful thing.
because what IF the world WAS ending today? what if it was? this is not to be fatalistic at all people. no. it is…
maybe some people are only asking themselves in their subconscious minds and if you read this, then are encouraged to ask yourself consciously, but today… TODAY. today and the days that follow…
the question is:
was it all worth it?
i mean, isn’t that what facing our mortality all about?
judgment day. judgment day. i know my 3 dimensional reality will not end on this day. but what is ending, what has been ending for me through a whole process, is the restraint of my fully expressed self. these last few days i’ve heard the teeny tiny voices in there asking myself, “…ok. now… hypothetically speaking, let’s just say ‘what if.’ what if it did end… did i live my life fully? did i love fully? did i follow my dreams?”
and the answer?
yes. yes and yes. yes and yes and YESS!!!
and there is always room for more. let me repeat: there is always room for more.
more life. more dreams. more LOVE.
because all of that is infinite.
and i fully understand that i choose my path. that i can choose either suffering or i can choose love. this is the human condition. and for me, after years of digging deep into my heart to release all the stuff that was blocking love, i face myself today and i love what i see because all i see is love. i look into the world and all i see is love. i see every single human being and all i see is love. every single animal, every single plant, every single star, every single pixel of space. every single fractal of existence.
this beautiful beautiful beautiful hologram we call life.
i am so grateful.
i’m grateful for you for reading this and allowing me the opportunity to share. truly. creating this blog almost two years ago was therapy for me and knowing i had readers checking in from all over the world inspired me to live with the highest integrity, which is truly a healing healing gift and i thank you.
and i’m grateful i got hacked. i’m grateful i can’t sign into fb for another 12 hours and 59 min. not that i’m counting.
but the lockout gave me space to give the other outlets some lovin. if you follow my twitter or blog, you may have noticed i have been a bit negligent. but it’s only because i’ve been uber present in my non-digital life.
except for fb. find me suckas and let’s be friends. (Patty YUniverse) <— i know, i know. and i make zero apologies for my dorkdom.
i love yous.
photo by miss tay tay.
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