This has indeed been the year of the Snake. Ssssssssssss… I am sssstill reveling at how the pain of shedding can be received with so much blisssss…
You may have read my blog about PAIN, or even watched one of my recent video blogs. Ever since my journey with healing candida and making it public, I’ve gotten LOTS of questions about the experience and what I’ve been doing to facilitate my healing. SOOO, here it is:
I’m going to first tell you about the treatment and then share aspects of my diet that I’ve changed, as well as any tips I’ve picked up on the way. I also have some advice based on feedback I’ve received from hundreds of people in our Candida Cleanser Support Group on FB that have taken or are currently taking it. This Candida Cleanser treatment has definitely been the MOST effective treatment I’ve ever done for candida and I finally feel liberated from its sticky, stagnant consciousness. Visit this website if you are interested in learning more about the specific product I used for healing my candida. I have to warn you, their website sucks. It’s true. But you know what? If they didn’t put that stupid alien thing on their FB page, I would have never found this stuff and it really saved me. I am so grateful. So if you can get past their web design choices, what I’m really recommending is the product, which actually works even if their website sucks. I was at a point where I had nothing to lose anymore and I wrote to them and established a connection. I was then blessed to be able to do a trial test study with them which you can watch in this BEFORE video and then an AFTER video.
If you have struggled with candida and choose to do this cleanse, I am excited for you! I have now had several friends who have also completed the cleanse, who are all seeing positive results and the common report is that they feel AMAZING. I also created a FB Support Group for people to join while doing the cleanse because die off can be a bitch!! I wish you all so much love and healing. I hope this blog supports you on your journey!
The Candida Cleanser Protocol
One bottle is a full 45 day treatment, which you take in three courses. You take 4 capsules a day for 5 days, and then you take a 10 day break. 5 days back on, 10 days off. 5 days on and you’re done taking pills, but your body continues cleaning house. The active ingredient is called Lufenuron. It is 100% pharmaceutical grade Lufenuron, which is an inert compound in the human body. It does not get processed through any major organs and if you do not have candida it passes out through your stool. This is a fat soluble compound and must be taken with fats in order for it to be properly absorbed and delivered into the blood stream. You must consume with at least 4g of fat per capsule. Taking it with pure coconut oil is not recommended as coconut oil taken alone can act as a diuretic and you could lose the compound in your stool. Take with fats AND food. I have heard that it is excellent to take with Ghee, and in fact, to open the capsules into the Ghee to take it. By taking properly with fats, the compound is slowly delivered into your blood stream so it can address candida in both forms (yeast and fungal), and it can remain in your system for up to a month after you take it. Here is a VERY informative video about the treatment that I helped produce.
Depending on how bad your candida is, you can (and for most of you very LIKELY will) have die off symptoms. These can be anything from flu symptoms (headaches, fever, body aches, cold chills) as your body deals with the toxins released by dying candida, to also common candida symptoms like yeast infection, thrush, bloating, skin irritations, and diarrhea, as the body pushes out the candida. There is also an emotional detox, so be prepared for extra sensitivity and irritability, emotional outbursts, depression, and anxiety. Some people also report dizziness, foggy head, fatigue, vertigo, pins and needles all over the skin, shortness of breath, and strange sensations in various organ systems.
Candida Cleanser offers a few products that help with detox support but you don’t have to go with their stuff. From hearing feedback in the support group, the Zeolites seem to help a LOT of people by reducing die off pretty significantly. You want to take this IN BETWEEN your capsules (so if you take the capsules every 4 hours, you take the Zeo-Co 2 hours in between. Do NOT take them at the same time or you might lost some of the cell wall suppressor to the Zeolites drawing them out. Feedback from people is that you might want to get an extra bottle of Zeo-Co because it is not the same dosage schedule as the actual 45 day treatment. Die off does decrease as you finish the cleanse, but if you anticipate a lot of die-off, you might want an extra bottle of Zeo-Co to get you through. Other detox support could be bentonite clay, activated charcoal, or any heavy metal detox supplements at your health food store.
Candida Cleanser makes a probiotic called EM-Pro. When I first did my treatment I didn’t get any of the extra products. Since I helped them document our test trial, the creator of Candida Cleanser, Clare on the website, sent me some EM-Pro because she was touched by the video. I had been taking the Garden of Life Raw Probiotic and thought it was fine. Here’s where I might be sharing a little TMI, so if you don’t want the details of Patty Yuniverse’s gastro intestinal delights, you might wanna jump ahead. I started taking the EM-Pro and WHOA. I felt my whole gut start to turn over and for three days I pooped really foul and almost black toxic sewage. It wasn’t pretty, but I am a lot happier that foul stuff is no longer INSIDE ME. So I’m pretty sold on her EM-Pro, and Clare even said to me she’s very proud of this product especially and wanted to send it to help prevent me from getting sick again. Since shipping from their Thailand location takes forever, I recommend stocking up as well.
What to Eat
This is the BIGGEST question I get asked and wow, have I been on a long journey to figure out what to freaking eat. Sheesh. After spending way too many years of eating whatever food and non-food I want and starting to feel gross and on the verge of disease a few years ago, to going raw vegan for 6 mos, to being high-raw vegan, to nose-diving into an out of control carb addicted vegan, to my body getting SHUT DOWN from the candida that blew up as soon as I started eating rice again after my raw phase, I have now found myself very happily and EASILY maintaining a basically Paleo diet that is edging toward a Ketogenic Diet. This means I am eating only whole foods, but staying grain-free, starch free, and mostly sugar free. I am eating vegetables, clean meat (free range or grass fed or wild only), seeds, nuts, and right now for healing my gut, I’m doing a LOT of bone broths. More cooked veggies, less raw veggies unless it’s juiced. Very little fruits. Ironically, I’m like 0% raw right now…not entirely true, but almost. Apparently, raw plant fibers, and the sugars from many fruits are not good for a damaged gut. So I’m cooking my meals to make them easier on the gut, but still taking in green juice regularly for extra living nutrients! Plus superfood supplements yo…
Things to KNOW
The body is a delicate ecosystem. It takes time to heal. I have had considerable healing crisises even after completing my actual treatment. I feel like I’m experiencing new kinds of sensations that indicate cellular reorganization in my body. Several times I’ve felt what seems to be cellular turnover in my gut as it continues to heal. There are times when a portion of my colon seems to feel inflamed, and there is a lot of gas released in that area, and then the inflammation disappears. I’ve learned to be patient with my body and it’s paying off. Slowly but surely, I can really feel how it’s reaching a state of genuine healing.
Another thing to know is that candida is a VERY COMMON microorganism that can be reintroduced very easily. Something I learned from Clare is that it can be transfered via intimate contact as well! My advice is to take it easy when you’re done and give yourself time and space to heal and ESPECIALLY make the effort to repopulate your gut with probiotics as a preventative. Don’t go binging on sugar immediately after. Also, just think about it… if the path you’ve been on led you to having a candida overgrowth, don’t you think you might need to make some changes? Yes. It’s true. To quote Einstein – “Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” If you want things to change, YOU will have to change.
Have I Had Sugar Since?
YES. My only “cheat” this holiday was that I ate a LOT of dried persimmons. I didn’t realize this, but ONE Japanese persimmon has 21g of sugar in it. I must have eaten 5 or 6 persimmons worth. I rode a fun sugar wave and then crashed out only to have a night full of tossing and turning. The next day I had my aerial silks class and I felt so much weaker than normal! I also felt inflammation in the body. I was more irritable the next day and also felt my blood sugar being on a delicate balance. I craved more sugar, which I chose to feed with a couple more persimmons just to see what would happen. Oh come on, I knew what would happen – subtle sugar high and then crash. I got the data I needed and quickly started craving the feeling of being more in that ketosis state on the higher fat, low carb paleo-like regimen, which means I’m very much back on the broths, blended green soup, veggies and clean meat. And I don’t feel out of control at all! This is only possible because of the Candida Cleanser treatment.
How I’ve Benefited
Besides the tremendous pain I experienced going away, the other BIGGEST and most pronounced change is that my allergies are 100% gone. I used to ONLY be allergy free while I was fasting and also during a 6-8 month period a few years ago when I ate all raw. Why didn’t I just stay raw? Well, I thought I was healthy enough to start eating brown rice and quinoa in the winter to have some warming food. That sparked the existing dormant candida in my body to rapidly grow in strength and that’s when I nose-dived out of control. I also recently learned about leaky gut and how hard it is for a damaged gut to digest raw plant fibers. Doing all the raw food could actually have further damaged my gut , which makes sense because when the candida surged, my allergies started coming back tenfold and I started breaking out and gaining lots of inflammation weight, even on a high raw vegan diet. Truly, it was all a blessing, because I would never have resolved my candida if I hadn’t decided to start shoving rice and quinoa back into my mouthhole. It would have just waited for the next opportune time to flare up and take over. Now, it’s a totally different game. The NEXT BIGGEST positive change is the mental clarity, drive, motivation, and focus that I now have versus before the cleanse. Wow…it’s a new world! I’m training in aerial silks and I’m getting focused. I’m investing energy into my projects and into myself and my education and growth, and I’m emotionally more present than I’ve ever been. Several weird body pains that nagged me for years are gone, and my skin is the most clear it’s been since before my teens. I have to say, I’m beyond happy with this product and I will keep some of this stuff in my back pocket to make sure I never go into that place of terrifying pain again.
This cleanse is for those who are truly ready to step back into full health and radiance! Please also join us in the FB support group if you want support during your cleanse and keep me posted on your experience!
I wish you all so much love and healing on your journeys!
Some years ago I had these two phrases tattooed to my forearms to remind me that I came here to die. Such a statement could be perceived as shocking but it’s true. I give thanks that somehow, through the fog of my once hyper-dulled and culturally medicated reality, my higher self revealed to me that the pain of death and transformation is inevitable in this realm. That I would not be able to avoid pain forever. That I could even learn to welcome pain as a teacher, and a sign of healing, growth, and evolution. My higher self also cultivated within my heart the understanding that suffering would be my choice if I wished to experience it. This mantra allowed me to dive into the pain I felt then, and rebirth myself into who I am now.
Come 2013…where I would experience pain again.
There is pain – the kind that makes you laugh at yourself for a silly bumped elbow. The kind that causes a slight gasp to escape from your lips. Or the kind that causes you to pour forth a combination of agony and ecstasy.
Then there is the kind of pain that stops you in your tracks. That makes you forget to breathe. A blinding pain that you feel through the infinite echoes of the Universe. The kind of pain that can send you momentarily to the other side just to wake you back up. WAKE UP! Stop. Breathe. This is the kind of pain that feels like a sure sign from the Universe to STOP. STOP what you are doing right NOW. Go no further until you have gotten to the ROOT of this…not later, but NOW.
Aye…I hear youniverse. I bow to you humbly now…please help me heal. I receive you in all your wisdom.
This healing path is often a confusing one…moments of rapture, ecstasy, bliss, mingling with momentary egoic certainty that there is some answer…some solution. Every time I feel certain about anything, the Universe gives me a reason to QUEST-ion again.
As I FEEL into pain…FEEL into my root connection with the Earth, I real-EYES I am feeling her. Momma I am feeling you. I am so sorry, please forgive me. Thank you, I love you. I am so grateful for this piece of you that you have kindly lent to me for this lifetime. This piece of you that I get to pilot and dance through the ether in the most magnificent grandest show of this lifetime upon lifetimes.
Thank you for showing me where I have been disconnected at my root…fearful. I thank you for inviting me to see what I was not letting myself see. I forgive myself and all. Thank you for the honor of giving me sight to see all that came before me, and all that will come after. I grieve for all the mothers lost on the journey. I give thanks for the ability to FEEL such grief and loss through this temporary experience of separation. I revel in the sweet bliss of agony. What a blessing it is to feel anything at all.
I also thank you for inviting me to feel into the depths of my third chakra storms…weathering the core of my existence in a full tantrum of rebirth stewing in the cauldron of my belly. My weakened armies of invisible soldiers finally standing up and demanding to be restored and replenished. Declaring WE ARE! Yes my darlings, we are and I AM! Proclaiming with determinism and force to change and heal in this NOW. I am sorry I neglected you and failed to provide what you need, severely limited by own stubborn mind. I now SEE…I’m here for you.
Thank you thank you thank you for the divine intelligence of the body, always doing its best at all times to serve our existence here on this Earth. Thank you thank you thank you for challenging me to step up to my highest choices…for me AND for momma Earth. I hear you. I honor you. I serve you. I serve US.
It has become quite abundantly clear that if I am to share my gifts with this world, that I must heal my root connection with the Earth. I also fully accept my role as a divine creator of my own reality…and I thank you for showing me that it all begins with my WILL. My CHOICE. My choices every day, every moment.
Life is oh so precious. I choose to honor this life always in all ways. Thank you for this magnificent experience. Blessed journey to us all.
Painting: Frida Kahlo
UPDATE: I have since began a healing journey from something called CANDIDA. Here is a video blog I made to describe my journey:
If you think you have candida (it is WAY more common than you might think) and you would like to know how I healed myself from candida, visit this link: http://bit.ly/12PeTD6.
as usual, transformation is the name of the game peeps. not surprising to me anymore, as this IS the time. it’s now or never!!
are you noticing it as well? noticing yourself and the people around you making changes, or if not consciously making them, situations “occur” to cause a shift? if you presence yourself and pay attention to the world around you, patterns and synchronicities emerge. everywhere. major shifts in our lives and major shifts on the planet, in our bodies, in our hearts, all mirroring each other so synchronistically. it’s so fucking beautiful and amazing i can hardly stand it! i am really just using an old paradigm figure of speech, because not only can i stand it, i am just reveling in it. soaking it up, yum yum fucking YUM.
let me ask you: how good can YOU stand it?
obviously, if you saw my last post, you heard me go on about exploring raw cuisine, and the many positive effects it has had on my health and spirit. and i realize rather than label myself a raw foodist, i’ve evolved into an intuitive eater, where i generally prefer food with a high content of nutrition, and that subsists of fresh, organically grown food, the less treated the better, and ultimately balance is the key.
when i began this exploration, my intention was to cleanse my body of all the toxins we take in on a regular basis eating processed and conventionally grown foods. i am so so so so grateful for this book i found called Secrets of An Alkaline Body, written by Annie Jubb. she opened a restaurant called Lifefood Organic near my place in hollywood, and discovering it, her, and the book… well, it saved my life. i am completely serious when i say this.
whatever was brewing beneath the surface that i couldn’t see but could intuitively feel, that probably wouldn’t have caused any “serious” issues for many years still, was causing a lot of fear deep in my mind. the deep fear came from not knowing. and not knowing creates lack of ease (hello? dis-ease!). this fear over not knowing kept me re-living my old patterns, which would have surely lead to disease. that is, until i gave myself the gift of bringing the parts of me sinking into the dark back into light. literally. for me, this was through food. i brought in more light — light created by the synthesis of the sun and the earth and our plants — back into my physical body.
this is fucking LIFE FORCE.
by seeking knowledge, i discovered knowing. by exercising integrity and intentionally changing my old patterns, i created ease. which came from harnessing the light. and the light is… well… ready? God. Source. Creator. Is. Be. Am. Us. You. Me. Whateveryouwannacallexistence.
and it blew my heart open. ok ok, so you’ve heard this already yes?
so why is this coming up again?
it has to do with a few sexy pictures that i’ve been hesitant to share.
this is certainly, by far, my most spiritual segue into sexy photos [to date].
but you see, this hesitancy to share is teaching me SOOOOO much about the whole process i’m going through discovering my true self. the photos are of course, from my annual summer shoot with my brother from another galaxy, lee clower. my connection with lee and the images we co-create is a channel for me to share an aspect of myself that i had kept in a pattern of hiding. it is an aspect innate within me — in fact, a gift — innate in all of us.
the pure energy of creation. this energy is so beautiful, so amazing, so deep, so fucking fire engine yes solar flare yes more aliens yes bursting universal loving yes ecstasy yes YES YES YES!
and yet… we are told our whole lives no no no…
that energy is shameful. you shouldn’t share that. you’ll be judged. you’ll be exploited. you’ll be stripped of your dignity. and to add another layer to the mix, we are also taught that our bodies should be “perfect.” perfect? what’s perfect??? and as defined by who???
when i was still “toxic” i bought into a lot of the shame and guilt. i required spiritual assistance (aka my friend big Green) to bring me to a place even close to self-acceptance. and since we’ve already established that i pretty much tell you everything (i mean, sheesh, if you just read from the beginning, this blog is basically a map of patty yu’s journey to self discovery), i totally used that “assistance” for this shoot, taken only halfway into my “spiritual transformation.” i say halfway because i was consciously doing a lot of looking inward to “exorcise the demons” and making fantastic progress! but i was still recreating many of the same patterns.
and so, when i look at these photos, i am reminded of where i was then. i see in my eyes the pain of not knowing. and i see a body that i recognize as beautiful and sexy, but i know that it was mistreated, not fed for 2 days prior, because i felt out of control due to lack of any real knowledge about how to nourish it. i recognize the confused me in those photos and i remember her. and my hesitation to share is me pausing to feel through those memories.
the echos of fear. echos of shame. echos of guilt.
but i know something changed. for good. and therefore i release all my judgment and i honor her. for making that shift. to get her to me.
because now i live in bliss every day. now i see myself in the light.
and i appreciate, and cherish, and nourish, and love my self, like we all deserve to be loved. nourished. cherished. appreciated.
and for whatever reason i am compelled to just share all of this process. to perhaps illuminate the complexity of self-consciousness, and how that can manifest within the human mind. i share this information to assist in your transformation, should you seek it.
because i appreciate, and cherish, and nourish, and love YOU, like YOU deserve to be loved. nourished. cherished. appreciated.
i ruv yous.
now that was a lot of foreplay…
are you as curious as i am how the next shoot will go?
love you lee. i am so grateful to co-create with you.
the time finally came for me to vlog out. what kind of person does these things? these little vlog things?
i mean, rather than start another written post saying long it’s been since i’ve blogged blah blah blah blah blah, i decided to just talk it out. OH BOY did i talk it out. BEWARE. 10 minutes of yours truly and that’s after editing it down.
and well, not to reveal anything in there, but you’ve probably already read about some of the shifts i’ve been going through and all i wanna say to preface my video (if it resonates with you) is that every person will find a way that works for him or her, but the key to all things in life is intention, and i only encourage each and every single one of you on your path to full health and happiness. i’ve picked up a LOT of tools in the last year that i will continue to share.
my growth involved many transitions and phases, but the one specific thing i cannot stress enough to every single person who reads this is to go ORGANIC and only support sustainable, HUMANE farming practices. do it for your body, for your children, for your future, for OUR future.
also, if there was one thing i did not mention in my video that i would say now is:
i think about writing in my blog every single day. and yet i don’t. obvsly.
please forgive me.
it’s not that i don’t have things to share. i do. tons in fact. for example, it was my birthday on the 10th of december. AND, i recently shot an episode of the show BONES in November, which suddenly had to be reshot on said birthday. might sound like a bummer but it turned out to be exactly the steamy birthday gift from the universe i asked for. wrapped in one easy package! but what do you mean patty yu?
well kids, number one, patty yu asked for work. check. number two patty yu asked for some lovin on her birthday. CHECK.
WHA??? yes. that is correct. see, it was an unseasonably warm week before my bday. i was shooting the shit with the universe, you know, cracking jokes, making grand exclamations of gratitude, and just having a nice day together, when i teased that it’s my birthday in a few days and you know i want to ri-i-i-i-ide out. i say teased, because the reality of this happening in patty yu’s life as we currently know it is slim to none (that’s if i want to keep my self respect, know what i’m sayin ladees?). so i just kind of laughed it off and thought nothing of it. taylor was there, she’ll tell you.
Out of nowhere, the 2nd AD on Bones calls and says we might have to reshoot on my bday. holy crap. my very first love scene on network TV (did i mention that?) and it had to be re-shot. oy. a few thoughts went through my mind. did i not give them what they wanted? everyone seemed so pleased and satisfied that first day. what possibly went wrong?
in two words: TOO. SEXY.
sorry bout that.
i only did exactly what the director asked of me. but here’s the little lesson in the business: the producers enforce the censorship handbook in situations like these, and the FOX network is… well… you fill in the blank. i have nothing bad to say about anyone. there’s something for everyone in the world. yada yada.
this is the part where i get to MY POINT: even though everything seemed to be perfect that first day of shooting and i did everything asked of me, and the world seemed to be moving forward as usual after we finished, somehow i still managed to find myself on top of an attractive young actor on my birthday.
happy fucking birthday to me.
sure, he was married IRL and it was all pretend, but he was sweet, had great energy, was uber respectful, and there was no chance to take it too far. HOW FREAKING PERFECT IS THAT???
thanks universe. i know you got my back. love ya lots.
maybe my periods of silence come in part because it’s slightly difficult to explain to ya’ll these circumstances, considering i always bring my pal U[niverse] into the convo (what is this bitch on you’re probably asking) and thus it all starts to seem a bit out there.
maybe the silence comes in part because i feel like i’m changing at light speed, especially now that i’ve been living so healthy and not making excuses anymore and being totally accountable for myself and all my decisions. living the dream, instead of living in desire.
maybe the silence comes in part because i have a LOT to share. my photoshoot with lee from this summer for example. i’ve only shared a few images. and there are more. oh BOY are there more. (i’ll be sure to explain my irrational complexes surrounding these images another time i promise.)
but when it really comes down to it… silly me…
i just feel kinda…
it makes no sense, i know, but that’s how i feel sometimes. i am only human after all.
i’ve thought a lot about how i would approach this blog post — more thought than i ever put into writing these things (usually it’s what i like to call written diarrhea. . . cuz i thought you needed that image in your mind just now).
anyhow, i realized that this would probably also become a post on body image, cuz let’s face it, the two are related and i am not afraid to talk about all the RETARDED SHIT that goes on in my head sometimes regarding my own body, and let me tell you, this business certainly isn’t the most sympathetic in regards to that, and I happen to be in it.
so a little background: my family is chinese. which means growing up, adults encourage you to eat A LOT OF FUCKING FOOD. and then if you get fat, they all make fun of you. and you can’t get offended.
that really didn’t apply to me personally because i was such a skinny freaking kid growing up that i developed a really nice positive relationship with food. as in, i ate a LOT of it. i took pride in my ability to eat so much for being so petite. pound for pound i could probably destroy ALL of you in an eating contest. i also had a lot of, erm, tummy issues growing up. notice i say “tummy issues” now, when earlier i had no problem writing DIARRHEA in a metaphoric sense. no matter, you get the idea. we’ve ALL been there. ahem.
in high school, i remember being called “skinny” a lot. i feared that people would think i had an eating disorder after learning about them from teen magazines (they might as well send you a manual, i mean really). so what did i do? i binged. i ate voraciously. and with great vigor. i bragged about how much i could eat. i was very lucky because at home my mom always cooked healthy, wholesome, balanced meals (thank you mom, you saved my life and future), but when not eating my mom’s cooking, it was BAD. LOTS of BAD FOOD. Pizza, doritos, cheetos, pasta, white bread, twix, fries, and COCA COLA. good god i loved coca cola. BUT — i was also in dance, cheerleading, diving, and an overall active young person, so of course — i stayed small.
fast forward to post college, move to LA. now the metabolism is slowing, now the physical activity is totally irregular or at some points nonexistent. now my mom isn’t cooking for me anymore. now i’m starting to notice…