I am pretty transparent in sharing my own discoveries from eating raw foods to quantum study and you know what? I’m manifesting some amazing experiences in my life because of it! And, the biggest lesson of all that all the greats and all the masters have ever said is to not take life too seriously. Laugh often and enjoy life. So…
Back in September I went to Burning Man. I came home to Ojai and into the ELEVATE estate with a group of artists, filmmakers, producers, designers, programmers, and other badass, highly skilled people and I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH. We are participating in the grandest social experiment of my life: living and working in community. Why? Well, why not?
People break their backs trying to support themselves in the old paradigm world we have lived in for so long and life can be so much easier if we all just shared and loved a little. In fact, a LOT! We share resources and support each other the way tribal cultures do and it WORKS. Amazingly!
The funny thing is, last year I remember telling one of my best friends that I was manifesting an experience like this because of a vision I had of community. I imagined a house much like the one I live in now, with the most brilliant minds (which they are), and all with the same dream: To uplift humanity through art, creativity, and to live and teach self sustainability.
I love my ELEVATE community. We are all human and deal with the banality of cleaning our house every day. I’m sure you’ve all experienced having to clean up after someone else. This is why we make the effort to have as much fun as possible doing the most mundane things! Enjoy!
but look what i’ve got for you after all these months!! i recently got to partake in a project spawned from the creative labs of ELEVATE as a response to a Will Ferrell parody of the video Dear Woman, a video based on the “Manifesto for Conscious Men,” which has gotten quite a number of hits on Youtube and has raised a bit of discussion amongst men and women alike regarding the dance of the masculine and feminine energies that lie within all of us. now, i won’t go into all that too deep this time around, but let’s just say a yin yang ain’t only the decal on your weed grinders folks. we’ll get back to that one.
and thing is, because this is a topic that isn’t right up at the top of every person’s consciousness, it’s easy to make mockery of such, which is exactly what Will Ferrell and friends did with this gem:
i was indeed judged today. yup. i got hacked. and you know what my punishment was? 24 hours without facebook. i’d say i did pretty good.
thanks GOD. love ya.
for real though i’m really thankful for today, ya know? it’s kind of amazing really. the download i keep getting is that it is a judgment day of sorts for the collective consciousness. even if we know deep in our hearts that the world isn’t going to physically end for the majority of humans today, many of us are weighing this day in our minds. both our conscious AND subconscious minds. did you know our subconscious minds process 400 billion bits of information per second while our conscious minds only process 40 bits per second? and because you can consciously control your conscious mind, you can know well and good that nothing crazy is gonna go down today. you can rationalize the hell out of it and be focused on all your other shit and know the day is just gonna continue as per usual etc., etc….
but your subconscious mind is processing ALLLLLL possibilities. which means there is deep deep within you, something that is saying, “yes, but what if…”
and that ‘what if’ is a beautiful thing.
because what IF the world WAS ending today? what if it was? this is not to be fatalistic at all people. no. it is…
maybe some people are only asking themselves in their subconscious minds and if you read this, then are encouraged to ask yourself consciously, but today… TODAY. today and the days that follow…
the question is:
was it all worth it?
i mean, isn’t that what facing our mortality all about?
judgment day. judgment day. i know my 3 dimensional reality will not end on this day. but what is ending, what has been ending for me through a whole process, is the restraint of my fully expressed self. these last few days i’ve heard the teeny tiny voices in there asking myself, “…ok. now… hypothetically speaking, let’s just say ‘what if.’ what if it did end… did i live my life fully? did i love fully? did i follow my dreams?”
and the answer?
yes. yes and yes. yes and yes and YESS!!!
and there is always room for more. let me repeat: there is always room for more.
more life. more dreams. more LOVE.
because all of that is infinite.
and i fully understand that i choose my path. that i can choose either suffering or i can choose love. this is the human condition. and for me, after years of digging deep into my heart to release all the stuff that was blocking love, i face myself today and i love what i see because all i see is love. i look into the world and all i see is love. i see every single human being and all i see is love. every single animal, every single plant, every single star, every single pixel of space. every single fractal of existence.
this beautiful beautiful beautiful hologram we call life.
i am so grateful.
i’m grateful for you for reading this and allowing me the opportunity to share. truly. creating this blog almost two years ago was therapy for me and knowing i had readers checking in from all over the world inspired me to live with the highest integrity, which is truly a healing healing gift and i thank you.
and i’m grateful i got hacked. i’m grateful i can’t sign into fb for another 12 hours and 59 min. not that i’m counting.
but the lockout gave me space to give the other outlets some lovin. if you follow my twitter or blog, you may have noticed i have been a bit negligent. but it’s only because i’ve been uber present in my non-digital life.
except for fb. find me suckas and let’s be friends. (Patty YUniverse) <— i know, i know. and i make zero apologies for my dorkdom.
lots of stuff in this first month of 2011…where do i begin? i suppose first of all, you should know i discovered that all this time since high school i’ve been typing incorrectly and losing the hearts of typographers everywhere by putting not one, but TWO spaces after each period of a sentence. not my fault! thanks, north carolina typing class teacher. needless to say, i will NOT be going back through my whole blog to correct this travesty.
next on the list: the episode of BONES that i appeared in aired last week. wohoo! t’was a non-speaking co-star, but i mentioned previously about having to reshoot the “love” scene because it was too sexy. apparently, sex — according to FOX network — does not involve any movement whatsoever. the first time we shot it i was specifically requested to rock wit u, but then the second time i was explicitly told, “less gyrating.”
MAKE UP YOUR MINDS, FOX.
anyhow, here’s a screen-capture — click it to watch the full episode on imdb:
this episode is written by an asian american writer and contains some content that miiight be construed as stereotyping…i dunno you tell me haha (i will play dumb for now). i found it humorous (don’t like to take everything too seriously ya know?), but perhaps it’s a way to start a dialogue. thoughts? i would love to know what ya’ll think after you watch it…
AND THEN the last order of business is…wait for it…
my friends Courtney and Jose created a web series of that very title, and it stars Jose, as himself, as The Drunken Chef. they asked me to guest star in this episode and we had a grand time shooting it. i was already well off the sauce when we shot this, although the crew (and drunken chef himself) enjoyed some beers. i think it was equally fun just pretending.
excessive as it’s become (as with all American EVERYTHING), it is one of my favorite times of the year.
well, for one, i can actually feel the surge of collective gratitude emanating around us.
thanksgiving is one of those holidays where, even though humans are scrambling and stressing to buy just the right things to complete just the right process to create just the right colon blockage, we are also insistently reminded to think of what we appreciate in our lives.
what we are thankful for.
wow. i mean you can feel it if you just slowed down a second.
we are so lucky, my fellow humans. we are SO SO SO SO SO freaking lucky. and did you know? when we take these moments to be grateful for all the wonderful gifts the universe brings us, whether it’s material success or personal challenges, if we all just start to see these as gifts, and we navigate through both the successes and challenges equally with grace and gratitude, then the universe will only bestow even more gifts to us.
call it God, call it Luck, call it Manifestation, call it whatever the flying fuck you want.
but i will tell you right now, withOUT gratitude and growth, there is little room created for abundance. let’s look at relationships for example. whenever one fuck feels taken for granted by another fuck, the first fuck starts to WITHHOLD. this is not a foreign concept to most of you, as you have probably all been in one or both of those roles (god knows this bitch has), so let’s all just be honest with ourselves.
anyhow, i’m not here to make anyone rehash old heartaches or any of that bullshit, i just want to remind ya’ll that we are all powerfully creative beings who CREATE our lives — our REALITIES. and in order to really live life fully, we really must learn to hold onto this feeling of gratitude and practice it every day.
take 60 seconds and close your eyes.
feel the beautiful, positive energy that connects us all today. do you feel it? do you feel the joy that’s been putting a hop and skip in the step of strangers all around you as you prepare for this day? FEEL IT. hug it. kiss it. hell, rub up on it, hump it, whatever you feel compelled to do to it — no judgement — it probably enjoys it as much as you do. but really feel it!
now imagine yourself harnessing that love with your heart and send that healing energy to all your friends, your loved ones, your babies, your animals, your bosses, your co-workers, your community, all the people you come in contact with today…
but even more importantly, send it out to the rest of the world, to our fellow human beings, to others who have much fewer material luxuries than we do, to others who are suffering from malnutrition, from hunger, from homelessness, from disease, and despair. take this moment to realize that we have so much.
we have SO MUCH.
i am so grateful for all my fellow human beings. i am so grateful to have a healthy, active mind that can visualize and see a future where humans understand that fighting serves no purpose anymore. i am so grateful for such amazing, beautiful diversity in our world that we share. i am so grateful to have the ability and opportunities to serve others, to help others, to encourage others. i am so grateful for all the challenges that life presents, and grateful for the opportunity to meet and overcome those challenges. i am so grateful for the ability to change and grow, this ability that is innate within all of us. every single one of us. i am grateful for every single human being in this world. every person, regardless of where you are on the path to self realization, whether you are still lost in the dark, living in the light, or walking the journey in between. i am so grateful for you. i am so grateful and i have so much love for every single one of you because you are me and i am you and without each other we would not exist.
i am so grateful. so so grateful. my heart just overflows with love for all of you.
today is so beautiful because there is so much of that love energy flowing. let’s remember to live in love every day my friends. imagine if we all loved each other this much every day, what that collective flow of love would feel like next thanksgiving. how much that field of energy will have grown. if we vowed to love this much everyday, imagine how many hearts we could heal. if we vowed to love this much everyday, imagine how the world would heal.
i imagine this everyday.
everyday i imagine this.
and my heart just continues to fill with love. and i realize that love is limitless. love is infinite. love is ever present and always there for you to tap into. love is so abundant that it will always overflow. all you need to do is feel it. it’s right here for you. it’s right here.
and if you are confused and you can’t feel it, it’s ok. and just know that i love you. i love you. i love you so much. i love you so so much. and i know that whatever challenge you face is one you have the ability to overcome. and i believe in you. i really do. there is so much love in my heart and it’s here for you.
so if anything, feel my heart. because i love you. unconditionally.