it’s the best. i mean come on. there’s nothing like embracing the madness. it’s fun magnifying those insanity pepper type thoughts that sometimes swim around up there. why the eff not?
i spent much of my youth having to restrain myself in this regard. my parents used to call me “wild.” i think i sometimes scared them a bit. they told me that girls didn’t act so wild and crazy like i did. i realize there were a lot of factors that influenced their belief of my wildness, including, but not limited to: my parents being first generation immigrants from taiwan; growing up with an older brother; moving and changing schools A LOT; and we musn’t forget – our best friend – SUGAR (a.k.a. “pure evil”). i will touch on this sugar thing again in another post i think, but right now i will just leave it at pure evil.
now, you might be imagining me tearing through life like a little asian chucky or something. but it wasn’t so much like that. i loved being girly and graceful too. i fell in love with the image of ballerinas before i can even remember. the lessons started at age 3. i loved it so much. i was good. i learned fast. my teachers noticed. my little 3 year old ego was pumped to be leader of the goslings in our Mother Goose recital.
i could be light.
i could be gentle.
i could be poised.
but most importantly, i could walk like a cat because cat paws are like ballet feet.
meow.
see, a part of me will always see some weird benefit like that. cuz ballet brings us THAT much closer to becoming pure feline.
obviously.
what was my point? oh right. well, i think i might be going through a weird spell. no wait. it’s not a spell, more like a surge, or a spark. or an electrical anomaly. not sure. regardless, it’s happening and i refuse to fight it. how all of this energy will present itself, i don’t know, but some of it is bubbling over into silly videos with mah gurl TAY TAY. we’ll see what else spews out too. BEWARE!
so come on! pop a pepper or two, and get weird with me. or you can just watch me and tay being weird in our second PATTAY video (here’s the first one).
watch me answer some questions about friendship for the italians for their website called LOVEFRIENDS. visit them at http://lvfrnds.com/ to watch more videos. in italian. mee-ow. Ciao ciao ciao ciao…
i’ve been feeling incredibly inspired the last few weeks, and particularly after the new year. see, i went to vegas to ring in 2010. now, normally i’m sort of disgusted by vegas. but something happened this trip. i saw life in a whole new way. let me explain…
we had been treated to a nye party at the playboy club in palms casino. admission, drinks, our room, everything was taken care of. fantastic.
but no more than 30 minutes after we got to the party, my friend anahi and i couldn’t take the energy of the place. to describe in one word: DARK. maybe because it was the playboy club, but it was like this regurgitation of what sexy should be, when in reality the place lacked any sensuality whatsoever. instead it just felt icky. there were shifty eyes all around us, trying to see who to look at, to see who was looking at them.
so three of us decided to journey back and found ourselves pouring out into the main casino. maybe it was the sound of all the machines, or the cocktail waitresses bustling around with drinks. maybe it was seeing people from all ends of the country — the world. or maybe it was mind altering substances, i dunno, but i suddenly saw everything as an exchange. i saw the exchange of energy between everything and everyone right before my eyes. transfers between people and people, people and machine, us and the earth. the food, the money, the hope, even the despair. batteries, bodies, spirits that continuously need charging.
it was all so amazing. so beautiful.
you might just think i’m out of my mind, and maybe i am a little, but it was incredibly inspiring. it’s making me see things in a fresh new light. and now i just want to keep creating and working with other people. exhange thoughts. ideas. vision. share. share. share.
i took a lot of photos because of this urge to share, and here are a few of my favorites. hope you enjoy them.
2010 is going to be amazing. keep exchanging, folks…
as in it’s still freaking hot outside. i’m craving the cold. you know, like one of those wonderfully crisp nights where the perfect nesting temp can only be created with the help of a lover. meow…
BUT, fall is great for other things, such as a busier commercial world. i’ve been auditioning more and booked a national spot for American Family Insurance. sweet. AND, i’m on avail for a Sprite commercial starring Jay Chou. rad rad. keep your fingers crossed for me.
also great, but annoying is Halloween. this year i decided i would milk every last drop out of the skeleton hoodie i bought for the BaO video and wore it for Dia De Los Muertos and Halloween. made this season so much more enjoyable because i didn’t have to come up with some stupid shit costume. not to mention it is the most comfortable thing EVER — the total antithesis to all the skimpy outfits that hot bitches (and not so hot ones) all over our country don on this day. anyhow, some photos:
a few weeks ago i posted a few 
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