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Thanksgiving.

excessive as it’s become (as with all American EVERYTHING), it is one of my favorite times of the year.

why?

well, for one, i can actually feel the surge of collective gratitude emanating around us.

thanksgiving is one of those holidays where, even though humans are scrambling and stressing to buy just the right things to complete just the right process to create just the right colon blockage, we are also insistently reminded to think of what we appreciate in our lives.

what we are thankful for.

wow.  i mean you can feel it if you just slowed down a second.

if you close your eyes…

breathe slowly in and out of your nose…

and let time slow down…

the gratitude is practically…

palpable.

THIS is the power of the collective mind.  THIS is what we should be doing EVERY MUTHA FUCKIN DAY.

this is HEALING.

we are so lucky, my fellow humans.  we are SO SO SO SO SO freaking lucky.  and did you know?  when we take these moments to be grateful for all the wonderful gifts the universe brings us, whether it’s material success or personal challenges, if we all just start to see these as gifts, and we navigate through both the successes and challenges equally with grace and gratitude, then the universe will only bestow even more gifts to us.

call it God, call it Luck, call it Manifestation, call it whatever the flying fuck you want.

but i will tell you right now, withOUT gratitude and growth, there is little room created for abundance.  let’s look at relationships for example.  whenever one fuck feels taken for granted by another fuck, the first fuck starts to WITHHOLD.  this is not a foreign concept to most of you, as you have probably all been in one or both of those roles (god knows this bitch has), so let’s all just be honest with ourselves.

anyhow, i’m not here to make anyone rehash old heartaches or any of that bullshit, i just want to remind ya’ll that we are all powerfully creative beings who CREATE our lives — our REALITIES.  and in order to really live life fully, we really must learn to hold onto this feeling of gratitude and practice it every day.

take 60 seconds and close your eyes.

feel the beautiful, positive energy that connects us all today.  do you feel it?  do you feel the joy that’s been putting a hop and skip in the step of strangers all around you as you prepare for this day?  FEEL IT.  hug it.  kiss it.  hell, rub up on it, hump it, whatever you feel compelled to do to it — no judgement — it probably enjoys it as much as you do.  but really feel it!

now imagine yourself harnessing that love with your heart and send that healing energy to all your friends, your loved ones, your babies, your animals, your bosses, your co-workers, your community, all the people you come in contact with today…

but even more importantly, send it out to the rest of the world, to our fellow human beings, to others who have much fewer material luxuries than we do, to others who are suffering from malnutrition, from hunger, from homelessness, from disease, and despair.  take this moment to realize that we have so much.

we have SO MUCH.

i am so grateful for all my fellow human beings.  i am so grateful to have a healthy, active mind that can visualize and see a future where humans understand that fighting serves no purpose anymore.  i am so grateful for such amazing, beautiful diversity in our world that we share.  i am so grateful to have the ability and opportunities to serve others, to help others, to encourage others.  i am so grateful for all the challenges that life presents, and grateful for the opportunity to meet and overcome those challenges.  i am so grateful for the ability to change and grow, this ability that is innate within all of us.  every single one of us.  i am grateful for every single human being in this world.  every person, regardless of where you are on the path to self realization, whether you are still lost in the dark, living in the light, or walking the journey in between.  i am so grateful for you.  i am so grateful and i have so much love for every single one of you because you are me and i am you and without each other we would not exist.

i am so grateful.  so so grateful.  my heart just overflows with love for all of you.

today is so beautiful because there is so much of that love energy flowing.  let’s remember to live in love every day my friends.  imagine if we all loved each other this much every day, what that collective flow of love would feel like next thanksgiving.  how much that field of energy will have grown.  if we vowed to love this much everyday, imagine how many hearts we could heal.  if we vowed to love this much everyday, imagine how the world would heal.

i imagine this everyday.

everyday i imagine this.

and my heart just continues to fill with love.  and i realize that love is limitless.  love is infinite.  love is ever present and always there for you to tap into.  love is so abundant that it will always overflow.  all you need to do is feel it.  it’s right here for you.  it’s right here.

right here.

and if you are confused and you can’t feel it, it’s ok.  and just know that i love you.  i love you.  i love you so much.  i love you so so much.  and i know that whatever challenge you face is one you have the ability to overcome.  and i believe in you.  i really do.  there is so much love in my heart and it’s here for you.

so if anything, feel my heart.  because i love you.  unconditionally.

i love you so much.

i love you so much.

so so so much, my beautifuls.

i love you so much.

xxxxxx

Posted 1 year, 2 months ago at 11:01 am.

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Forever Jung

“Every form of addiction is bad, no matter whether the narcotic be alcohol or morphine or idealism.”  — Carl Jung

if you follow me on twitter or facebook, you have been privy to my barrage of various inspirational quotes of late.

how apropo carl, how apropo.

it’s true though, i have definitely been on an idealism binge.  this one is pretty serious.  i mean, i was always a super idealistic kid.  astrology will tell you it’s in my nature (sadge duh) and i have only ever continually validated that assumption throughout my life.  i mean look at what i’m setting out to do here.  it is an idealholic’s wet dream — cuz until you’re truly in it, this business makes no promises.  no promises at all.  not of fame and definitely not of fortune.

absolutely no guarantees except the one in my soul.

quote that motherfuckers!

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Posted 1 year, 3 months ago at 4:15 am.

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I ain’t talkin’ bubble baths

i have been feeling stretched a little…so much going on.  mom, birthdays, weddings, parties, shows, friends, babies…so many people to see…friends i miss.  but  it’s making me crave some ‘ME’ time.  you know, like…a nice long day to myself where i do all kinds of weird shit around the house.  “clean.”  dance around.  rifle through old stuff.  take self portraits.  write.  make a video.

THAT is what i think i need to do.  make a goddamn video.  but jeez…of course i have to have the most complicated idea ever that will require a ton of production…which means i need to make some serious scrill.  let me just tell you, last year was rough.  who am i kidding?  i ain’t rich.  i am so lucky i worked as much as i did last year, but most of my commercial work will only air in asia = no residuals.  STILL…i booked more jobs in 2009 than any previous year, so I am incredibly grateful.  thank you, universe, i heart you.

but i’m bored.  restless.  ready to sink.  in.  my.  teeth.

2010, i feel you.  you feel good to me.  let’s play.

Posted 1 year, 11 months ago at 11:43 pm.

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Learning Curve

i feel like a completely transformed person compared to who i was just a few months ago.

to take an idea in my head and to bring it to fruition has been the most exhilarating experience. i am so thankful for what my career has given me so far, and i’m not talking money or recognition. but rather, all my experience in this crazy town has given me the tools to begin creating on my own. i no longer feel eternally suspended mid air, wondering when i’ll book another job, wondering when auditions will start picking up, or being afraid of losing representation.

instead, i am in the best place i can possibly imagine — exercising the great gift of forward thinking. now i ask myself, “what shall i create next?”

these last few months have been invaluable to my career, i can tell. and i am so grateful for all the people who believed in the project as much as i did after hearing my pitches and seeing my treatments. these people gave me so many hours of their time and energy (quite the precious commodity in this city), and were willing to do so without monetary gain. it’s amazing how far an idea can take you.

this spirit of collaboration is fuel for me. and it makes me want to give back to everyone who helped me. these are all talented artists with special skills, and we all compliment each other. not to say there weren’t tense moments when we were under tremendous pressure during the shoot. but out of that pressure, so much MAGIC happened. hahaha…….i just can’t even describe that feeling.

i am so excited to continue on this amazing journey.
i am so excited to continue sharing my wacky ideas with the world.
and i hope that they inspire you, like you inspire me every day.

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Posted 2 years, 6 months ago at 11:51 am.

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